May 8, 2006

  • STRESSED OUT...???

    I finally broke down in tears during revision last night. I had not felt so stressed since I left school in 2001. I am absolutely useless ha ha!


    Everyone is saying that I will do well because I have been working hard. But attending every lecture is SOMETHING I OUGHT TO DO right? Besides, poor attendance (hence lack of knowledge) was partly to blame for my crappy B.Sc. exam results, the other being laziness. AAARRRGGGHHH!


    I mentioned before that I get the most pressure from . He keeps saying: "Just think right: [our friend] did it and he is not particularly bright. And if you don't do as well as he does then you are officially a retard!" He is also saying that he has everything paved for me and all I have to do is to get 2:2 or better in my exams.


    To stay on track I have to constantly remind myself why I decided to take a second degree in the first place:


    1. My job is so boring it makes me sick. The only way out of it is to change to another field.
    2. I want more $.
    3. I want to know more about 's work, and maybe to assist him in some ways.
    4. I want my Uncle MT to stop thinking that I am stupid, like he has since the day I told him that Imperial College was too good for me to make an application to. 
    5. I hate it when people say with a  : "So how's work at H--- S--- Bank treating you?"
    6.


    One thought is keeping me sane: everything will be over in 24 days!



    My London Aunt DD is visiting (again) soon and I ordered the following items from amazon for free delivery in the UK, so she can bring them over:
    1. Nigella Lawson's cookbook
    2. Jordan's book
    3. Tae Bo DVD


    I sent her an email today regarding lunch on Friday and I also said: PS: Don't laugh at my amazon purchases!


    And her reply was:


    You read my mind. I did laugh when your Amazon purchases arrived---I was expecting heavy legal books! My goodness. Nigella Lawson and Jordan AND martail arts!!!!! See you Friday.
    Love
    DD


Comments (10)

  • aww.. add oil!! :) you can do it!! just put your heart to it.. if you want something bad enough, you will get it ;)

    eLfie.x

  • hey darL!! dun stress.. i know u had put in alot of hard work for this. i am sure god will look after u!! i have faith in u sweetie!! .. GOOD LUCK and take care of urself.!

    yes i am back............ what a short break. altholugh is 2 weeks already. felt like 2 days only wahhahaa.. want another break already!

  • Stress comes with the territory as long as you're still in school, well as long as you remind yourself of the reason why you're there in the first place you'll soon find the motivation and discipline you need :)

  • I spent a lot of time in school.  You just have to reach down inside yourself and pull it out.  I would get depressed some nights studying.  You are so smart.  I bet you will do well.

  • thanks for your compliments!

    I can totally feel your stress....that's exactly how I felt when I was studying makeup. Everybody thought that I can never do it (ie. will do a bad job), so I have to work that extra mile and prove that I am right in choosing this path. I had sleepless nights and super stressful days trying to design/put together this look ne.

    Anyways Good luck on your exams!:sunny:

  • work's supposed to be more or less boring :sleepy: no? If you're too excited work all the time.. I'd say that'd be a bit abnormal. I like the new food blog, yaw ;)

  • i've tae bo lor! u should have asked me!

  • take a breather and chillax for a bit..

    or else..

    you'll go bananas! hehe

  • your friend Daniel winked me 2 times on friendster :lol:

  • RYC:  Ha.  You would change it?

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